i really am the dexin

few days ago,i was somekind in a moderation.i have been thinking and thinking and thinking.i got myself into this cellphone load business and unto cell cards and phone cards.begging my blockmates to have their phones reloaded through me.but i thought...i won't go elsewhere from here.theseare just coins---that is what i am thinking right now....hahaha..true true true...but better than nothing at hand.i am still thinking--of going back to my old perk at the call center and BPO company,,but i do have an erratic schedule right now.i need soething which is more flexible for my school right now.and no doubt,,i need to have a business from scratch which can get through me,with me,for me.

a dinner at 6,i asked a friend for an idea of a perky perk.he told me to submit a resume through him in the company where he is now connected.urrgh.it's a talent promotions agency.he said you can already earn a darn amount from simply doing what the talent-iers are wishing you to do.it's a reputable one,he said.all you gotta do is wear the Diatabs shirt and they will drop you to places like boracay and the like to give the company's flyers and promote new products and so on and on and on.hahaha! a big belly laugh on me!hahaha.....

and then he added that there are circumstances that when a certain company needs you for the commercial,they will need you to just wear anything which represents their product and show it on tv without showing your face or any other part of your body other that the part wherein their product represents.and then,you'll get paid.hahahah! another belly laugh!...so i said....i can't do that..im not pretty!...he said that i don't need to be..coz none of my face will be seen anyway.hahah...so can someone just bang my head on the wall anyway?i went crazy over his idea-hahahaha..so ileft that part alone...

now time for a more possible one-blogging!but oopppss,,,,that can be a ladder step forward or the opposite...so for now,,i can say,that that's not just at the back of my mind, but at the darker side of it.hahaha.but we never know.
another one-writing.i have tried to make a nice output and put it unto a book compilation.but i have been running of so much stories and ideas to tell that i got ruined of where to start or how to end it.so the result?--every segment i wrote just became essays.and the next page is a total different one.probably because my ideas are crashing.i could not really pinpoint my main story.and the problem which i think i have is that i could not write by the day.i write at night.and so when i feel dizzy,i won't get to finish whatever my head really wants to write about. so the morning after,i would not want to write whatever it is that i would have written the night before that.i would just start a new one-one that depicts that lingeries of that day. urrgghhh...i think i really need to learn a lot first. so many things that i thought i knew but i really don't.

so what about tomorrow?another morning?nope....another night for me to reminisce everything which will ever happen for that another day.-dex