sunday

hey friend,can you still see me?
would you like to come with me?
you know,i feel so sorry..this is your friend,Rorie.
I wonder where we are,..right now,right here...
we seem to be so farright there and then...
it was meticulousfor us ,for we
came out from our own blues
i ve waited for you last night
why didn't you show up?
i stayed awake all out
didn't know what that all about
grew out and tired for waiting
for least,you never came
did put a baracade to guard you
from your route through all the shame
waited for the days and suns to watch me
as i walk and hear your voice
glanced for each steps and each reflections
hoped somehow,it was your noise
leaned forward to side and back
wished to catch you with your shadow
still grew tired and stiff and weary
while waitin' for that fancy arrow.

a sole for a soul

January 9th, 2008 by dexindrug

I can’t afford not to speak
But can’t afford not to act
And if you’d tell me you’d just go
‘Cause you can’t afford not to leave
Then I won’t tell you to stay
Though I know very well
That you’d leave me so sick

If you haven’t thought about me,
Then I’d tell you
That I, I thought about you
But if you never wanna see me
I still wanted to see you
But if you’d tell me to just go
And stay so far far far away
I’d still wait for that moment
That you’d forgive me someday

the sixth-part fart

January 9th, 2008 by dexindrug

Times may never be back
And im shattered out of luck
To look forward,to go on
Is a resistance out of shock

And there were nights and there were times
When I just wanted peace
That when I sleep and when I snore
I grew out of all my sores
So I did sleep myself one day
In a hot and sunny May
To have peace of mind which I can’t define
To get the clue of what’s in line

I’ve traveled too far
Way back way back when
I used to smile and laugh aloud
While my heart was once so proud
With all my people sorrounding me
I knew I was secured
But then they left off
Never were found
And I never got the cure

It was this shot which brought me back
But left without a trace
Of ignorance from renaissance
It was written in a phrase
I understood that then it showed
My purpose for my path
That after all ,were said and done
Dreams created me a wrath

flash back’s incomplete

January 7th, 2008 by dexindrug

i was a girl,,starting to see life.realizing what it was made of.counteracting with some shattered soul.
it was a bright light above, gazing through and through,,sharing laughs with my circles, who believed in me,,trusted in me,looked up on me.it was not finalized.we are the people of the thoughts-talking bout issues,from sun-up til sundown/.it was empty.
it was cruel.my day to day became a routine.a route to where.i landed my fist out of integrity and voided all the cruelty.sultry sweet and clear glasses.
i remember the days when my friend gracy and i would hide behind the piles of books at the library.sneaking out ourselves with those books and papers which never even determined what we really wanted to be,years ahead.we both knew we’re not on our paths.she’s a math girl and i was basically that another girl in school who got teased to be the campus deejay.
one day we both wrote ourselves a letter-an ingenius one.the repertoire of our illusions grew out to be an issue of the future.it’s escapable but was not even diminished.i learned that laughter was a habit.it was a natural thing.and my friend got sick,literally.and i got overwhelmed symbolically.everything just jumped out and our thoughts became our frustrations.(to be continued)

dark night

How many days and how many nights have I seen myself mourning.how bout the crafts,
And the drafts which were left raveled
While im soaring
And so I did go and found me a place to secure myself abhore.but when I disguised and locked myself up,there was nothin but a maze

The puzzled figures and the sultry peas,came in to welcome me
As I looked narrow,I felt them tender
Without the trace of glee…
And down the cave as I moved in
And out was there to see
That it was nothing and it was empty
Therefore I can’t be free

dark night

How many days and how many nights have I seen myself mourning.how bout the crafts,
And the drafts which were left raveled
While im soaring
And so I did go and found me a place to secure myself abhore.but when I disguised and locked myself up,there was nothin but a maze

The puzzled figures and the sultry peas,came in to welcome me
As I looked narrow,I felt them tender
Without the trace of glee…
And down the cave as I moved in
And out was there to see
That it was nothing and it was empty
Therefore I can’t be free

i love you,goodbye

in the wee hours of the day,,you were always there.when i was sooo down,your,smile,,your,growl,your presence was all i needed to have my life back again.you never knew how much it hurts me now,,now that you're gone.

i remember so well,,when you were young,,i didn't like you much,,your hair's rusty,it was so stiff,,velvety skin was all you've got,your set of teeth,,i think was all but rut,,and definitely,you really looked like a cat.but all these imperfections were then never a matter,of how our friendship grew over and over,,isn't it nice,isn't it a wonder,,of how these two creatures got along together?

you're my forecast for the weather

you're my gratitude and my thunder

you're my friend and my lover

and yes,to me,you were also a brother...

Dearest kuya untot,,now that you're gone,,not just jappi,not just me,not just dormo and the rest of the family....but everyone who saw you grew up to be a loyal pet and family member,,are missing you now,huhuh

you know we did it all... we did our very best,to revive you through cpr,,I AM SORRY-IT WAS NOT A MERE SUCCESS

you left a big darn hole in our lives,,,thanks for the memories and the happy cheerings together,,untot!

you may never have the privilege for the promised paradise of Jehovah God,,but we never know..

i will always keep you in my memory,,i cried for you,,so hard,,and you know that...i know you saw me cryin when i knew you were dyin'...but i wonder if you really saw me,coz you were at yar stage of delirium

I LOVED YOU UNTOT,I AM LOVING YOU UNTOT,I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

WE ARE MISSING YOU.HUGS FOR THE CROWN DOG!TEARS TEARS TEARS